Wow -- five months since my last post. Where does the time go?
As most of you know, in a few short weeks, I will be turning the big "four-oh" -- that's right, 40. I don't mind too much other than the fact it sounds weird when it comes out of my mouth..."I'm 40." Forty? Really?? Wasn't I just 25 yesterday?? Apparently not.
For the past year or more I have really struggled. This was supposed to be my year of "getting it done" -- that's what I called it right here on my blog nine months ago. However it has turned out to be my year of getting stuck in a rut without a road map out. I haven't accomplished nearly enough. Do we ever feel like we've accomplished enough?
I often feel like I've lost my sense of joy -- instead of living my life, I go through the motions -- one day to the next -- here's what has to happen today, let's get it done. I have let many things I enjoy completely go -- blogging, scrapbooking, etc. I'm starting to think I'm having a mid-life crisis of sorts. Do females even have mid-life crises??
Thank goodness for the virtue of hope -- because without it, I likely would have given up long ago. I still have hope. Hope that I will find peace again. Hope that God will give me the grace to be a better mother, a better wife, a more productive human being.
That part about being more productive needs to start right now, so I am keeping this post short -- my house in in desperate need of a good cleaning.
Enjoy the weekend -- and since today is September 11th (even though my post may come up with a different date -- I started it several days ago) -- let's all remember to count our blessings and to carry on -- filled with HOPE and gratitude.
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It's NEVER too late to change your life, sweetie! Only you can control your destiny. Find a purpose and embrace it. You were one of the first people to introduce me to inspirational quotes so here's one for you...
...some people live 90 years....some people live 1 year, 90 times - choose how much life you are willing to live. It's a beautiful thing!
(((((hugs))))))
Here´s the story: I´ve added some new feeds to my BLoglines, so I´m taking a look at what I had in my list and noticed how many hadn´t updated for a long while, which took me to wonder about you.
In the exact moment that I´m doing that ... your posts pops up.
Food for thought (these took me out of my slump, hope they are useful for you):
Question #1: "enough" according to whose standards? what would be "enough" for you? what would doing "more than enough" mean for you?
Question #2: what is on your list? who put it there? why are you resisting it?
Hey cuz,
you're alive. I thought I was a "blog abandoner" but you have me beat--ha ha just kidding. My dad is 75 today, so I guess 40 isn't too bad. I know the hardship, though. Loss of interest in things that used to excite or make you happy. I feel like I'm still in a lull myself.
Maybe something new, Like a new hobby, or a break away from the same old environment will help.
Have a funfilled day!!!!
Hey sweetie! So glad to see an update from you. Totally get where you're coming from. Work has had me in a funk, going through the motions as you say. I've got a quote for you too.
Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up. - Anne Lamott
{{HUGS}}
I'm glad I'm in good company! It's been a weird year...I thought I finally busted thru the funk with my mini purge spurt, and then look around and get overwhelmed about what to do next! LOL
I love Paula's thoughts...thanks for sharing.
Hang in there girly!
WHAT? A post from Rita?
Wow. And I am not even on facebook. :)
Rita, you are one of the greatest moms of the face of the planet and someday you will be surrounded by awesome grandkids and you will wonder why you worried so much about being productive.
Love you tons.
Glad that you are back.
Love the advice given already and will only add that its also important to take care of yourself...physically, spiritually, emotionally, etc... because when you are doing well, you and your family reap those rewards together! You're a great mom and I think we all question ourselves at some point about whether we're doing enough, giving enough, and savoring those precious moments! And sometimes we judge ourselves much to harshly! I know that I've been guilty of that! But I also know that I've been blessed and I know that you have too!
{{hugs}} I totally know what you mean about going through the motions of life without actually living it...
'This too shall pass' is my hope...
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