Marriage is hard!

So at the risk of being a complete downer, I am feeling the need to vent. (But just a little...so don't worry! If I had posted earlier, you may have gotten a REAL eyeful/earful, but I waited! LOL)

I consider myself to be a fairly optimistic, happy person, so I hope this won't sound too negative or like I'm complaining. But dang it -- I have to say, the longer I'm married, the more I understand divorce! Not that I'm contemplating such a thing -- I just understand how it happens, especially if people go into marriage for the wrong reasons or without really thinking it through.

I remember when I was engaged, I was really excited about getting married. I was never one of those girls who had visions of fairy tales or expected it to be a walk in the park, but I knew marriage was a wonderful thing and looked forward to my life as a wife and eventually a mother. I distinctly remember one day when I was working, one of my clients asked about my wedding and I was happily telling her about it and how I looked forward to being married. She rolled her eyes and said very sarcastically, "Just you wait!" It made me really sad at the time, that someone would say that. But now, here I sit nearly ten years later and I finally understand it.

I do believe marriage is a wonderful thing. At the same time I wish people understood beforehand how much work it requires and how hard it can be. I also think that sometimes you don't see a person's true colors until later. I know this isn't always true, but sometimes I think you have to go through several life changing events to see how a person truly operates and where their priorities really lie. Dr. Phil would probably disagree (and my gosh would he have a hay day with me! -- what is a hay day anyway? -- as I typed it, I started to wonder! LOL).

Anyhow, I am just having a rough day and it seems I have more of them than I'd like in this particular regard. This is my meager attempt at venting without sharing too much information and I hope I'm not offending anyone. I literally have no one to talk to here and sometimes it's hard.

So what can I say on a happier note....hmmm....

Thank goodness for the three amazing little blessings God has given me to keep me going and keep my spirits up when I need it. I love those little monkeys more than anything. And I am also so thankful for my wonderful friends and loving family. I truly am very, very blessed.