Alright, I guess you are stuck with me! I'm going to work harder at being a better blogger. I guess I'm not ready to give it up altogether yet! (And thanks to those of you who encouraged me to keep it up! :) )
This week, I've been thinking about some decisions I need to make. It made me realize how hard I try to please everyone. And you know what? It just can't be done. I can't make everyone happy. And I'm not sure why that's hard for me to accept. But it is.
I know one decision I've made will disappoint my mom. I won't go into details for fear of boring you. But I will say the thought of upsetting my mom gives me HUGE knots in my stomach. Huge. 37 years old and I can't stand the thought of my mother's disapproval. I guess that's normal -- isn't it? I don't know. Logically, I can tell myself that my mom and I are not going to agree on everything. But when I know I'm disappointing her, it makes me feel terrible.
I hope my children will always value my opinion, but I also hope as they grow, I will be able to let them make their own choices even if I disagree with them. I hope I will be able to be supportive and understanding. Being a parent is so hard when it comes to protecting and letting go. So is being a child I guess, no matter how old you are.
It looks like Blogger is going to freeze up on me, so I am going to cut this short and see if I can publish it. I'll be back soon -- I hope!
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6 comments:
Yay! I am so glad that you decided to stick around, Rita! ((((hugs))))
that goes for me too - SO glad you decided to keep the blog :)
YEAH for sticking around I would miss your blog too much! It makes me think!
I am glad you decided to stay...
-shalini
Haven't been here for a wee while and didn't know you were thinking about going....so glad you stayed!
Awe dearest friend! I can't imagine you could disapoint anyone! She loves you she is your mom!! That is unconditional!
Your children will grow to be amazing friends and parents them selves because they had you for a mother!
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